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Title: "Wide Awake and Screaming"
Author: Mala
E-mail: malisita@geocities.com
Rating: PG.
Summary: What keeps Valenti up at night?
Disclaimer: People who aren't me own all characters and concepts
within this fic.
Category: Other "Roswell" stories.
Jim Valenti didn't know when he'd stopped sleeping at night. Was it
when his dad would go out alien hunting for days on end, looking for clues
from the big murder in '59? Or maybe college. . .when the laughs and
the rumors had driven him to drop out and join police training?
Texas A&M hadn't been far enough. He should've run farther. Maybe
it was more recent insomnia.
Maybe when they'd lost Kyle's mother. . ?
Or maybe he'd never started sleeping. Maybe he'd come from the womb
wide awake and screaming and was destined to be that way until it killed
him. He knew what people in town said about him. That he was chasing
spaceships just like his old man. That he would end up jut as alone
and crazy.
He was 'focused,' some said. 'Determined,' said others. Most called
him 'obsessed.'
So be it.
He swirled scotch around in a plastic, green face-bedecked tumbler from
Amy DeLuca's shop, listening to the ice cubes clink. Somewhere in the
house, a door slammed. Kyle. No doubt he'd just stumbled home from
a party. A social drunk where his daddy was a private one. And
they'd both be equally
sober and clear-eyed in the morning. He'd never yelled at Kyle for drinking
underage. . .or for much else. Sometimes it seemed better to forget the boy
existed at all, didn't it? He looked so much like his ma. . .
Did Amy DeLuca neglect her precious Maria in favor of making plastic
key chains and balloons? Did her obsession with space ships make her
blind to the kind of people her child hung around with? Liars and freaks and
trailer trash?
Jim laughed to himself, covering his mouth and setting down his drink
before he sent it sloshing all over himself and the kitchen table. Some
sheriff he was--slurring a couple of no-account kids like Liz Parker and Alex
Whitman, Max & Isabel Evans, and Michael Guerin. Some impartial
enforcer of justice. The town thought he was a crackpot on a crusade.
They didn't care if the Evans kids and the Guerin boy were
extraterrestrials. Roswell's town
council would probably hand them keys to the city and ask them to be
official mascots.
It was a wonder he hadn't been fired yet. If things kept going the way
they were, it would come soon enough. Losing his job wasn't even a fear he
really had. He'd lost his sleep, his father's sanity, and his wife all
ready. The only things he had left were Kyle and his belief in the
truth. The crash in 1947 hadn't been weather balloons. The hand
print on the body from '59 hadn't been silver paint. And
sixteen-year-old Max Evans had done something to Liz Parker in the
Crash Down last fall. She'd been shot and the boy had done
something to heal her.
He just wanted proof. He just wanted to believe. He just wanted to
sleep again. What else was there in life? Finding love again? Watching
his son graduate high school and college? Taking another drink of scotch and
wondering if behind three young faces there lay heart-shaped heads and green
skin? He raised his glass. The choice was easy. It was the choice he made
every night.
Focus. Determination. Obsession. These were virtues, not sins.
*
Kyle Valenti came into the kitchen for a glass of water and wasn't
surprised to find his father slumped at the table with a nearly empty bottle
of liquor and an empty glass. It was the only way he ever got any shut-eye.
After taking a long draught from the tap, rinsing his plastic cup out in
the sink and putting it back in the cabinet, Kyle washed his father's glass,
too. He couldn't hide a chuckle at the alien faces that ringed it.
It would do no good to put the bottle back on the shelf. Or to try and
help Jim upstairs. In a few hours, the sun would be up and any signs
of weakness gone. The Valenti men took care of themselves. Purely
self-sufficient.
He didn't quite believe himself as he slowly made his way back to his
room. God only knew what kind of demons were sitting at that table with the
only parent he had left. He just hoped he didn't inherit them. The
Valenti alien crusade was a legacy he could do without.
*
When the blackness lifted at 5:00 a.m., Jim was clear-headed and alert.
He went upstairs to shower with a casual spring in his step and a cheerful
smile on his face. He even knocked twice on Kyle's door to make the boy
turn over and mumble that he had two more hours till he had to get up. He was
wide awake. And screaming. Always screaming.
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